To know me is to know I am eager to please, stubborn as all heck, overcommitted, and worn-out. I feel like I am not as good of a mother as I should be, or as good of a wife and homemaker as I should be... and that I use the word "should" far too often.
I don't like where my life is right now for various reasons that will come out as time goes by. But I want to change much of that. The challenge is right now I'm am two weeks away from taking another part of the CPA exam so I feel that I can only study, care for the house/kids, keep everyone fed & clean, and sleep. But that has led to some very bad habits - staying up late (like right now) to enjoy the quiet of the house, and sleeping in in the morning (my favorite bad habit of all). Deep breath now. Here we go.
My husband, as much as I love him, respect him, and am very annoyed at him right now, cannot change how unhappy I am. God, as much as I love Him, respect Him, and am a bit frustrated with Him right now, cannot change how unhappy I am. I can. And I don't have to wait until my delayed taxes are done, or the CPA exam is done, or my Christmas shopping, or whatever I come up with. I need to start today, right now, with one step.
I've been doing Weight Watchers (another story) for the past 14 weeks and have lost 12 pounds and am almost back to a size 6. It started with just a step and I am rather proud of myself for doing it. So I am giving up my sleeping-in mornings. Perhaps I will arrange for one or two a month, but starting tomorrow, I will be getting up with a smile. Ok, that's a bit much, but I will be getting up on time to start the day off right.
Step one, day one. Next we'll add early to bed, but I'm not there yet, ok?
I don't like where my life is right now for various reasons that will come out as time goes by. But I want to change much of that. The challenge is right now I'm am two weeks away from taking another part of the CPA exam so I feel that I can only study, care for the house/kids, keep everyone fed & clean, and sleep. But that has led to some very bad habits - staying up late (like right now) to enjoy the quiet of the house, and sleeping in in the morning (my favorite bad habit of all). Deep breath now. Here we go.
My husband, as much as I love him, respect him, and am very annoyed at him right now, cannot change how unhappy I am. God, as much as I love Him, respect Him, and am a bit frustrated with Him right now, cannot change how unhappy I am. I can. And I don't have to wait until my delayed taxes are done, or the CPA exam is done, or my Christmas shopping, or whatever I come up with. I need to start today, right now, with one step.
I've been doing Weight Watchers (another story) for the past 14 weeks and have lost 12 pounds and am almost back to a size 6. It started with just a step and I am rather proud of myself for doing it. So I am giving up my sleeping-in mornings. Perhaps I will arrange for one or two a month, but starting tomorrow, I will be getting up with a smile. Ok, that's a bit much, but I will be getting up on time to start the day off right.
Step one, day one. Next we'll add early to bed, but I'm not there yet, ok?
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